So I read this big fat book all the way to Maine. The big book of CANCER!!!!! Oh man, now I am starting to think that I shouldn’t have taken the trip and here I was, light years away from reality. I thought about my possible diagnosis of cancer. I thought about the end of my life. I thought about getting my affairs in order when I got back from the trip, believe it or not. I also challenged myself to try and have a good time. I had a good time…but I knew I was forever changed. I now was someone who entered the ranks of being a person who was diagnosed with cancer. How did that happen??? I felt like everyone who looked at me could see a lump growing through my shirt. I started to hope for end to the vacation, because I needed some answers. How long can a person not know if they have a life changing disease? What the heck. It seems like a year since they told me I needed a biopsy.